Today was one of those days where I was pushed to my limits with dd1. So much so I sat down on the couch and just cried and cried. Today I felt like a true failure as a mother. Today I had to muster all the energy to keep going. How can a 2 year old push you so much? They are so tiny and have such little knowledge of the world and I am supposed to be the adult and have infinite patience and the ability to ignore such behaviour but yet she manages to push me to my absolute limits by just saying 'no'. For the ump teenth time that day. I'm so ashamed I just lost it. DD1 is just going through a stage and while I know this logically it doesn't make it any easier when I'm trying just to get her to do something, It is just so hard some times
So I decided for my own sanity to throw both the kids into the car and get out the house and take a break from our routine. We went had lunch with their dad at his work and then went to the shops (something my daughter loves to do) and looked at the clothes and the shoes and the toys and did something different. Sometimes a break in routine is the best thing and okay restart tomorrow. Tomorrow is a new day and hopefully the patience tank has been refuelled.